Long time no see

I'm fighting a losing battle with my emotions.  I can't seem to get a handle on them.  I'm either up or i'm down.  And all of this happens in like a 5 minute time frame.  I'm losing sleep over these horrible emotions.  Whatever happened to not feeling anything?  Now I just feel way too much.  I wish I had the option to turn off my emotions and then turn them back on again.  Like a remote to your body.  As of now, I am shutting down because my emotions have exhausted me.  I hate myself for so many damn reasons.